Thoughts on the brink of a new beginning

Right now, as you read this, I am probably 35,000 feet in the air, doing breathing exercises to curb my fear of flying, and having a panic attack about whether or not I’m doing the right thing.

For as long as I can remember, I have dreamed of this day; of setting off to live in a new place with new people. While other girls were planning their weddings and cutting out pictures of wedding dresses, I was reading all about and cutting out pictures of the different countries I could live in.

I dream of making the whole world my neighbourhood; of exploring it and loving it all.

So yes, I am doing the right thing.

But it is only natural that I am nervous. I am a whole cocktail of emotions. Fear is right there where the grenadine should be, but I am mostly excited and joyful.

I am also somewhat sad, because sacrifices have to be made when you follow your dreams. Leaving the people I love behind is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. But I am blessed that they love me enough to let me go.

I am excited about being a student again. I didn’t do my Masters degree as soon as I graduated and so many people told me I was silly and that once I entered the working world I would never study again. But I am glad it happened this way. If I had not worked for two years, I would not have the experience I do now and I would not know what I wanted. This new knowledge I’ll be getting – I can contextualise it now that I know what I know.

I am so looking forward to learning all about things which will make me an even more valuable professional, and which will give me the opportunity to channel my creativity.

I know this year will be over in the blink of an eye. Twenty-four years of hope and anticipation leading to one single year. That’s why I intend to milk this year for all it’s worth. I am going to sit for ten minutes every evening and meditate on just how lucky I am to be here and to have come this far. I am going to say only ‘yes’ to any new opportunity that presents itself. More than anything, I am going to make my camera a part of me. It will be more than a machine; it will be an appendage. And you guys get to share that experience with me, here, through my blog.

It’s going to be a great year.

But for now, I have some deep breaths to get back to.

 

6 Comments on Thoughts on the brink of a new beginning

  1. Sarah
    August 23, 2011 at 5:56 pm (3 years ago)

    Good luck! I hope this year is everything you want it to be and more!

    Reply
  2. Claire
    August 23, 2011 at 8:47 pm (3 years ago)

    *squeals* This is just awesome.

    Reply
  3. Eliza
    August 25, 2011 at 9:27 pm (3 years ago)

    Good luck! I am looking forward to your adventures in Dublin! (slightly jealous, will have to live vicariously through you ;-)

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    • admin
      August 26, 2011 at 2:26 pm (3 years ago)

      Thanks Eliza!

      Reply

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